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i can take day by day

 i can take each day as a day, and that's it. How things are one day doesn't have to mean  anything; it doesn't have to signify that things raen't going well in my life. I can be prsesent and just focus on the day and how it's going. I don't have to have such a cloudy mind in thinking how things have been or how they are going to be. rather i can just focus on the present. so yesterday was such a good day. no school. spent all day with eloise. organized clothes and she wanted to. starting to feel cooler, like fall. had delicious chicken noodle soup that joseph made. conley loved school.  (new school Explore) and today i'm also feeling good. but i just meditate becasue if elt like my heart rate was going up some for some reason adn I just felt rushed like I always needed to be doing something.
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Exercise 1

 This is the first time I've journaled since thinking about weaning off Lexapro. I feel good about getting myself to a place where I am taking care of myself and listening to my thoughts and body and mind and heart and allowing them all to feel and process, before I start weaning off medications. Anyway, this amazing companion guide by this thing called the Withdrawal Project has these questions for me to answer as basically the first step to the preparation phase of the journey. What does the idea of coming off psychiatric drugs mean to me? It means having a clearer mind. It means an ability to listen to my mind more clearly, and then allow it to communicate to me how I'm feeling, what triggers I have and things I need to avoid, learn, address, etc. Right now those communications from myself to myself are dampened.  It also means a bit of fear. What will I be like? Will I be a bad mom? Will I know how to slow down?  I also have some reticence in talking about it, because I rea
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